| Its beginnging to look a lot like Christmas!!! |
[Dec. 10th, 2008|09:32 pm] |
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| | white chritmas- bing crosby | ] |
Its snowing.
In Houston.
*big smile*
Even if its just for one day.....this is so cool!
There is actual snow on the lawns, plants and cars. Like actual snow!!! *squee*
Last year, its wouldn't stay on there for long cause it wasn't that cold, but this year....its actually on there.
It will probably be the only day it will happen, but at least I got to see it. We actually even had a small snowball fight. LOL!
I love this holiday! |
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| strap-on anyone. HAHAHAHA! |
[Oct. 31st, 2007|09:43 pm] |
Horacio: I want a boyfriend. I am tired of living by myself. I want someone to be with me.
Me: *pouts* Aw, my horacito. I will live with you. *pouts some more*
Horacio: No, mija (daughter in spanish). You can't give me what I want.
Me: *laughs* WOW! So its like that.
Horacio: *smirks* I haven't had any in a long time.
Me: *laughs*
Horacio: Besides, even if you put one on, it won't feel the same. And it definitely won't taste the same.
Me: *dies laughing*
OMG! I FREAKING LOVE HIM SO MUCH!!!!
I was kinda weirded out, but slightly turned on at the same time. LMAO!
Never a dull moment with my Horacio. That dude says everything thats in his mind, and dammit if its not funny. and perverted! |
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| I am so bored!!!!!!!! |
[Oct. 19th, 2007|09:38 pm] |
I have no life.
Twin is not going to be here all night. I won't see her till tomorrow.
The moo-moos is partying it up with her co-workers. (This just makes me hate my job even more. Fucken hell hole!!!!!)
The bestie is out of town.
My horacio was sleepy.
BOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!
I wanted to go out.
I have no money, but I wanted to go out.
I. AM. SOOOOOOO. FUCKEN. BBBBBBBBBBBBOOOOOOOOOOORRRRRRRREEEEEEEEEDDDDDDDD!!!!!!!!!
I am going to sleep. *rolls eyes*
OH LAURA!!!!! I wish you were here. *pout*
Okay, I will stop complaining. I am just being a jealous bitch, here.
UGH! How pathetic. I royally suck.
*sad face* |
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| man, that would be so freaking cool if it was true!!!! |
[Oct. 1st, 2007|09:30 pm] |
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| [ | music |
| | something frying in the kitchen and my sister channel surfing. | ] |
center>| sakurachanmcrx's LJ stalker is uhmnothx! | | uhmnothx is stalking you because your LiveJournal is just SO damned interesting. They are also stalking the rest of your friends list! |
LJ Stalker FinderFrom Go-Quiz.com</center> is it weird that i actually squee'd a little because of this!!?!! DAMN, CAN YOU SAY FUCKEN DOFUS!?!!?!? *rofl*p.s my mom.....is *pulls hair out*.....seriously. its fucken stupid. fucken stupid. UGH! |
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| yuppies, I am lame, and WHAT!?!!?! |
[Sep. 20th, 2007|07:14 pm] |
| [ | Tags | | | bayside, bff, dashboard confessional, horactio, lameness, money, sleepy, trackspin, work | ] |
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| | its a room and its 'living', i say THE LIVING ROOM! | ] |
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| | loved | ] |
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| | no music, but some guy talking on the Weather Channel. *coughnerdcough* | ] |
So, as of the last post, nothing much has changed. I do know, as I have since the first day, that I have the most amazing fucking bestest bestfriend EVER!!! She is just too amazing for words, and I simply adore her. LOVE YOU SILLY HEAD!!!!!!! *mentally hugs ever so tightly*
So, my bff (Veve), my horacito and I have this ritual after work. We go out and have lunch or dinner, depending on what time we come out. And I drive, cause I have the BIG PIMPING TAHOE (DAMN STRAIGHT!!! HAHAHA!) and well, I actually love to drive. So we go to different restuarants and chill. Usually that is in the form of making fun of me, 0_o, but whatevers. LOL! Well since I have no money, I have been bailing on them, because otherwise I would just sit there. Well they wouldn't have it, they paid for me the first two times, but I felt awful.
I didn't even let them talk me into it the other times after that. I just told them "Bye" and took off. Well, I talked to Veve, and she said that it hurts that I wouldn't let her pay for me. She was like, "As long as I have money, I don't mind. Besides, what are bestfriends for." That and she said she wanted to choke, beat, and slap me. HAHAHAHAHA! Dammit, I love her!
Is it wrong that I just don't want to have them do that? I mean I have spent lots of money on her, and yet I won't let her do it for me. I have never denied that I was a hyprocrite, but I just don't like it. I am not use to people just doing that. I have never had friends who actually cared about me, and not want to use me. Its just too weird and I feel awful.
*smacks self*
Its so ridiculous that I say I feel awful to having people care about me like that. Stupid bitches who fucked me over. Becasue of them, I am hurting my two bestest friends in the world. I mean they have both told me I do, and yet, I can't get over my stubborness of having them pay for me. I suck.
How do I get over this? How do I make it so I don't hurt them, and yet I don't feel do fucken awful?
Damn, am I lame or what? Ugh!
Anyways, besides that. I am so counting down the days til I get to see BAYSIDE!!! I can't wait. YAY!!!!! (thank the goddess I actually had some money in my fucken credit cards *smacks self again*, cause otherwise I would be soooo bummed!) *squee*
My sister is so stoked. (I totally have to thank her for 'shoving' them in my face. HAHA)
I am also going to go see DASHBOARD CONFESSIONAL. My bff bought me a ticket. *sigh* She loves him, and is so damn excited. I have seen him once, and he totally blew me away. LOL! THE CULT, THE FUCKEN CULT. Damn them fans, they be so HARDCORE! HAHAHAHAH!
Well thats all for now, I have to get to sleep. Waking up at 4 in the morning is torture. You think after 3 1/2 years I would be use to it.....GUESS AGAIN! *dies* LOL!
Oh and because I totally love her mind.....and she is so damn RAD, please add her. she is too cool for words. and I simply adore her! *blush*
ADD HER! ADD HER! ADD HER! SHE IS SO FUCKEN RAWKING!!!!!
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| pillow, come here. mama needs to lay her head down for a while. |
[Sep. 14th, 2007|08:29 pm] |
jeez louise! I am so fucken tired, its insane! And these damn contacts are so damn try, i am giving popeye a run for his money on wicked faces. I mean seriously! All I need now is a fucken eye patch and some rad pirate lingo, and I am a go. ARRRR!
So, you know what sucks. Working a job you hate very much, that you kinda just wish you died in your sleep, so you don't have to go to work. Hate, like that, is surely a form of torture. ARGH! <---pirate :) You know what sucks even more than that?!?!??! Your bff as your boss. Yeah. *hangs head*
Its not that I don't love her. Cause lord do I love that crazy whore! LOL! I love her to fucken death. I just don't like the fact that I fail to draw the line between her being my bff and her being my boss. And that kinda shit gets me in trouble. I forget that I can't act the way I act when we hang on the weekends and stuff. I have to have a business like attitude with her at work. Its hard. VERY HARD!
I brought this up with her, cause I told her that I let my emotions get the best of me. I mean, for reals, this isn't damn high school. I can't get all emotional. Not emo. EM-OH-TION-AL. NOT emo, but emotional. There IS a difference. Humph! I told her that I shouldn't act like that at work, and that regardless of what I am feeling, I have to suck it up and act like its all good. I mean, she is my boss. She got so upset by it and told me that she doesn't like that, and she doesn't want me to act anything. To just leave things the way the are, that its fine like that.
But see, thats where this sucks. Cause I kinda act like a bitch, and towards her as well, and thats not cool. I kinda talk back sometimes too. Again, I say, she is my boss, thats a big NO-NO! BIG NO-NO!!! It seems like such a simple concept/notion of making sure to draw the line of being bff and boss and employee. BUT I CAN'T SEEM TO FIND IT!!!!
My problem is that I let my emotions get me. Therefore, I kinda just let them out. I know she doesn't want me to fake it, but I don't see how else. I shouldn't act like that in front of my co-workers. It would be like favoritism (sp?), or something. UGH!
All I know is that I hate when I act like that. It makes me feel.....guilty. Weak. Uncontrollable. *sigh*
Dammit. I so need to find another job. Not cause of this situation, but because I hate that shit-hole. LOL!
*yawn*
i am so sweepy. (i meant to spell it that way, just so you know. nothing like baby talk, when you can't stop from crossing your eyes cause they want to close. HAHAH!)
p.s There is this new show on some network (i get them all confused, lol) called "The Big Bang Theory" or something like that, what will be coming out later this fall. And well, I, Elle ♥, is totally in love with the nerds/geeks that come out! *rofl* AHEM! Seriously, I am. And I am so going to try to see this when it comes out. The tall one.....OH LORD! He is so freaking HIL-ARRRRRRR-IIIIIIIIII-OUS!!!!!!!! LMAO!
I really love this updating regularly stuff. I feel like I am not too clouded in my head when I let some of this out. YAY for stupid lj! HAHAHA! |
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| cause sometimes you just gotta have some ABBA......ROFL! |
[Sep. 13th, 2007|08:53 pm] |
Seriously, ABBA just rocks. And don't hate, cause I can totally rock out to them. HELL YEAH! LOL!
Anyways, *rofl*, look at me making more regualar post. hahaha! Okay, actually this is a meme. But I would really love to read what you, my lovely, beautiful and wonderful lj friends have to say. So please do this (I'll beg if I have to, no shame, for reals!) for me.
this was *coughstolencough* from ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) the_glory_days.
( do this, or i will pout. and i will whimper. and if you do it, i will show some mad love! however you want it, baby! *wink wink* hahah! )
p.s. mad freaking love to all of you! especially the wonderful venus_moon for just being the biggest sweetheart I have had the pleasure of adding. lol! XOXOXO! |
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| "Life will go on, life will go on." |
[Sep. 12th, 2007|08:22 pm] |
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| | Song from this movie I am watching. | ] |
So since my last post, I have been going insane with worry about the whole court/ticket/hearing thing.
I sent in the driver record and the defensive driver record this Monday. Which was also the day I found out that I would have to go to a hearing, because they say I didn't 'comply with the terms.' So I freaked out.
Well I wanted to call yesterday, but I got out of work too late. Besides I thought, I just sent it in, I should give it one more day. So today, I got out early, and called, because my heart couldn't take it anymore. I seriously was going insane with worry.
So, I told them my story, and she asked for my name. Two minutes later she was on telling me they had gotten it, and that everything was dismissed and I didn't have to worry about it anymore. It was cleared.
I. can. breathe AGAIN!!!! *does the happy dance*
I almost teared up. I was so sure that I would have to go to the hearing and that I would have to pay a big fine. But its cleared now.
YAY!
Now, if only I can find a good job with good pay, or a part-time to make ends meet. Oh and if I can go back to school, on a full-tuition. *swoons* That would make things so much easier. I would be way tired and maybe stressed out with classes, but I would be doing what I have wanted to do for the past 2 yrs. My fucken dream, dammit!!!!!
But for now, I am just glad the ticket got dismissed and that I don't have to take a day off of work (I have no more vacation time.) and drive 45 minutes out of town, to talk to some judge, who will probably make me wait a long time before I could see him. (its happened before. ugh!)
*does happy dance again*
to venus_moon: You are a total sweetheart. And thank you for keeping your promises. lol. *hugs you* |
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| pissed!!! |
[Sep. 8th, 2007|01:56 pm] |
you would think after so many times of it happening to me i would have remembered to do it now. yeah well.....NOT SO MUCH!!!!!!!
i just had a very long fucken journal to post and i forgot to copy it before i posted it, you know just in case my computer wanted to act stupid or what not.....well i didnt.
now i lost it and i am ROYAL FUCKEN PISSED!!!!!
i loved what i said and how i said it, and now its erased. i tried to see if i could get it back, but its gone.
dammit!!!!!
yeah....so now its going to take so much longer to post, cause i am too annoyed to want to start over.
ugh! |
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| to the wonderful the_glory_days |
[Aug. 21st, 2007|04:31 pm] |
i will get to it i promise.
just let me be able to keep my eyes open for more than 5 mins intervals, then I am a go.
also....i kinda have to think this over.
i want to make it personal and whatnot....just dont know how personal.
i want to make this a self realization thing. so i am uberly excited you tagged me...i need to start back on the track to making something out of my life. and i think this will help.
but again, just let me feel a little better.
hugs, doll!
♥
edit: (i made you a tag...haha) |
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| excessive whining, just warning you. |
[Aug. 19th, 2007|06:26 pm] |
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| | none. sounds hurt my head even more | ] |
so i have been broke for the past two weeks. and that totally sucks. i need to buy some things, but i dont get paid til this friday, and even then, i cant waste that money, casue i have to save it for when it comes time to pay my bills.
which brings me to my next dilema. i need money cause i want to go to the doctor. i am incredibly sick right now. typing this is becoming a lot harder than i assumed it would.
i can hardly open my eyes, my head feels like it going to explode. my neck feels sooo damn stiff i cant even move it. my tonsils are so damn swollen, it hurts ALOT to swallow, talk and even breathe. my nose is sooo damn stuffed up, i am gasping for air (which hurts with the tonsils.) my body aches and i feel very weak. it hurts so bad, i have cried three times today.
i am not going to work tomorrow. and i am probably going to have to borrow some money. i have to get medicine for this. i have taken four different over the counter stuff and none of it has made a difference. at least the fevers have gone down. *pout*
this sucks.
okay. enough. the fucken screen is hurting my eyes.
i hope everyone/anyone who reads this is doing better than i am.
i would send hugs, but i dont want to pass my germs. ew! haha! |
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[Jun. 3rd, 2007|04:41 am] |
okay, so this going to be a pointless blog, but i felt like posting something. even though it is 2:30 in the morning and i am very sleepy and i should go to sleep. lol.
so yeah.....my sister is the best. lol.......man, you seriously make me laugh sooo hard. and i love that with you....and can act like the fucken biggest dork and you will laugh with me, at least thats what i hope you are doing, and not at me. 0_o. yeah???? lol.
so my sisters and i went to galveston, this past saturday. it was nice. it had rained, so it was cooler and the wind was breezy and cool. we took the ferry. man, we were cracking up and being sooo damn goofy. lol. my sister has the best fucken sarcasm ever. she had me cracking up and i had them laughing so hard. lol. i love hanging with them, i can be soooo damn dorky and goofy and they totally just play along. i can say some shitty ass and corny shit and they just laugh or throw something even more better back at me. i love it. its some of my greatest moments. i love my sisters! i wish there was like twin personalities of them out there somewhere, cause i consider them my bffs, but its one thing that they are my sisters, but it would be soooo awesome to meet a stranger like them, man......i would sooo fucken get along with them. hahahah! it would rock sooo hardcore. i need to learn how to be like that with everyone.....cause i have no shame when i am with them.....its weird....but, i guess. i guess i am afraid that people wont accept the real me. its stupid i know......but i dont know. i am not being fake, but i would hate to have to defend that, if someone does start to think i am. this is who i have always been......i just didnt want to show it. but whatevers.....i love my poops and twin.....they fucken rock. AND THEY ARE FUCKEN HARDCORE......MORE THAN ANYONE I KNOW. damn straight!!!!!!!!
my bros, in the hospital. i just hope he gets better soon. i cant take this much longer......its like lately i have to keep taking someone in my family to the hospital every other week or something. its sucks. i dont like them being in there.....i dont want them to be sick.....i dont want them to be in pain. *tear* *sniff* crying doesnt help in situations like this. i have to be strong. *sigh*
so i got to finally spend time with veve. it actually felt like it did when......yeah. it felt nice. i liked it more than anyone can imagine. *sigh*
today was my horacito's birthday. EEEEEEEEEEEEEEE! my daddy. lol! for reals, no lie.....i hope, with ALL my heart, that he is always in my life. i really dont think he knows how MUCH i mean it when i tell him i need him. he really is soooooooo special to me. i love him SOOOOOOOOO much!
we took him to outback steak house. his choice. lol. it was okay......they got great bread. we talked and laughed, but like thats sooo unavoidable, cause like, its fucken horacio......he never shuts up and he can make you laugh. hahahha, dammit i love him. hahhahah! cheesy fries are awesome. lol.
oh, i found out i lost my id case. dammit. now i dont have an id case......*pout* i lost one of my credit cards, my drivers license, and some other little papers i had in there. one thing i lost that i am going to cry over....seriously, i am...cause that shit meant a lot to me....is the my chemical romance ticket stub i had. i would literally take it out, look at it, tear up a little and yes, as embarrassed as i am to admit this, i would kiss it. dammit, i love them and seeing them live will always be one of the best, BEST damn days of my life.....and that ticket stub meant world to me. now i dont have it. *pout* *sigh* oh and to make matters worse, i will have to take another damn pic for my drivers license. UGH!!!!!
so my job fucken sucks. and i need another one. i have already done my resume. and i am going to start sending it out this week. *crosses fingers* i hope i get some replies.....i need to leave that place. its really not working out for me. stupid fucken job!!!!!!!
my 'soulmate' is engaged. dont know why i have to announce that.....maybe because my heart just cracked a tiny bit. but yeah, ,my 'soulmate' is getting married. *giggles* i kinda already knew.....but.....i dont know. i am not upset about it....little sad....but.....i am not suprised. i wish them the best......dammit.....first him and now him....hahahhaha! i am such a dork. she is cute and very sweet.....at least i hope she is and what not......like seriously, i am such a fucken dork. lmao!
i was talking to a family friend, who i think as a grandma, and she told me that maybe i shouldnt give up on my nursing prospects....that today its a very good field to get into. i dont know. dammit....i am soooo confused as to what i want to really invest time in. ugh! *sigh* i wish i could look into some crystal ball and see which one would work out.....one thing is for sure, i want to do both....just dont know in which order. she did say, "you are young...you have time to do all kinds of things." and yeah, thats true, but....like i said....which one should i do first. this is really fucken up my mind. *rolls eyes*
i went to the store last time, and i saw this girl.....she was soooooo damn pretty. i found her very attractive. i caught her looking at me and she even smiled.....i, of course, being me, lol, mad-dogged her and took off the other way. *giggles* why am i so afraid to love someone?!?!?!? why am i so afraid to let anyone love me? grrrr! oh and that also happened with this one guy....okay actually it happened with three guys. *chuckles* and man.....one was soooooo DAMN HOT! i was like, damn baby.....you pushed all the right buttons, hahahahahhahahah! *blush* ROFL! i hate it, but i cant help but laugh. so damn stupid of me to do. *shrugs shoulders*
aw man.....i want to sooo buy this guitar. its soooo beautiful. ugh! man, i wish i had money. like seriously, i keep thinking about it....i want to have it in my hands again.....i want to strum the strings and feel its vibration, i want to feel it, touch it, i want to have it in my arms.....damn, thats sounds way tooo sexual.....*blush*. WOW! *raises eyebrow, grins, and winks* DUDES, I WOULD FUCKEN MAKE LOVE TO THAT GUITAR IF IT POSSIBLE. im a freak, but damn, not like that. hahahhahah!
i have been having trouble breathing again. and that fucken sucks. i dont want to have to go the hospital again. if this does keep up, i WILL get chronic lung problems......*pouts* way to go down elle, way to go down! there goes my future as front woman to a rock band, hahaha. no seriously....that would had been awesome. at least now, when i cough, it clears up alittle. which makes it easier to breathe. cause man....the pain, its rough. *sigh* its bad enough my mom is sick and my brother is in the hospital....i dont need to get sick on them too. although my mom does look at me worried. i dont blame her...i am worried too.
i cant fucken wait for the HARRY POTTER MOVIE!!!!!! EEEEEEEEEEEE! i am sooo fucken excited for it!!!!!! AHHHHHHHH! lol! damn that harry potter.....i have grown to love you. hehhehehhehe! is it sad that i want to kick the ass of that girl who gets to kiss him?!?!?!?! i am such a fucken fangirl, like seriously, slap me silly and tag me insane.....i am fucken upset. LMAO!
so yeah.......thats all for now kiddies. mama has to go piss. lol!
peace out yo! keep it real, and go get laid....cause i know if i had someone, i would be. lol!
XXXXXXXXXXXX and maybe one or two Os!!! *giggles*
your one twisted dreamer,
elle ♥ |
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[May. 22nd, 2007|09:44 pm] |
taken from: voltagecity
Respond to this and:
1: I'll respond with something random about you.
2: I'll challenge you to try something.
3: I'll pick a color that I associate with you.
4: I'll tell you something I like about you.
5: I'll tell you my first/clearest memory of you.
6: I'll tell you what animal you remind me of.
7: I'll ask you something I've always wanted to ask you.
8: If I do this for you, you must post this in your journal.
in other stuff/news......nobody noticed.
yay me! that was full and rotting in sarcasm
can someone work their mojo/magic and get me a new job?!?!?!? i soooooooo, SSOOOOOOOO need a new one. *sigh* |
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[May. 20th, 2007|11:39 pm] |
have to ask myself, if i really ever had you?
were you really ever there?
i know its all my fault.
i know i am to blame.
but really, wasnt it suppose to make us stronger?
i want to make it right.
but i dont know anymore or how.
i dont think i am worth it
you are so much better now.
do you really need the dark cloud, that i am, over your head?
do you even care?
i know i am not making things better, in fact, only worser.
but i want you to know, i am dying inside.
just in case you didnt notice.
i dont want to hurt you anymore.
i know i am.
or maybe, i dont exist anymore to make such an impact.
i wish i knew what was happening.
how to explain it all.
but i dont.
and it hurts me more not knowing how, than i can ever hurt you.
i cried yesterday, because i didnt feel you.
i havent felt you in so long.
i dont want to lose you.
but i am so lost as it is, i dont think i can find my way back.
maybe its better this way.
you have so much light. do you really need my darkness?
i wish i could tell you this.
i wish it didnt have to be expressed like this.
you have so much to give.....while i want to take more than i should take.
i wish i could go back in time.
i wish i could change it.
but its too late.
please tell me its not to late. |
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| there really is nothing else to do...... |
[May. 20th, 2007|11:25 pm] |
.....then give into them.
or actually, to respect their feelings.
i mean, honestly, it is my damn attitude that is making them uncomfortable and 'bitter'. it is wrong of me to be like that, when they havent done anything. i guess.
so i have decided, despite my hesitation, that i will be nicer in the morning. ARGH!
i hate mornings....why cant they understand that!?!??! i mean seriously, if they took the time to notice, i actually crack a smile when all that morning bullshit is over with. UGH!
okay, breathe elle. its going to be okay. *pout*
man....why?
i guess this would be sooo much easier if i could just fucken figure out what the fuck is driving me to be this way. i mean i have my problems, and shit like that, but i mean.....why to this extent???? i have had to deal with this bull several times before.....it just doesnt make sense.
whatever.....lets see how it goes tomorrow. *screams* this is going to be hard.....and what sucks...is i doubt anyone will notice. and whats even worse....is i doubt it will make a difference.
*sigh* i wish people could read my mind....*gasps*....OH HELL THE FUCK NO!!!.....NEVERMIND! lol. that would not be a good thing...hahahahah.....i hope noone can ever read my mind.....EVER!
alright....time to go to sleep. stupid *insert all cuss words here* job. lmao.
nighty night!
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| my voice fails me, but my hands/fingers dont. |
[May. 19th, 2007|02:58 am] |
*sigh*
( yeah, emo cut! )
yeah.....sooo this is getting long.
sorry if none of this makes any sense. lol.
hugs and all that stuff.......<3 ya'll!
elle♥
p.s can i just say i am bummed that i missed shiny toy guns when they passed through here??? i didnt even know they did. 0_o. see....where the fuck is my mind?!?!??! i feel the same way i did when i missed p@td (3 x's) and tai...(2 x's), bummed.
p.p.s can i also say, that i hate this guy i work with??? okay, not hate...too strong of a word, but i strongly DEPISE him!!!!!! he made me feel stupid, insignificant and worser than i already did. fucken asshole....HEY DANIEL.....GET OFF HER FUCKEN NIPS DOUCHE BAG!!!! yeah....can i kick him the balls once or twice....asshole has made me look bad three times now.....FUCK YOU AND YOUR 'I AM SOO FUCKEN PUNK ROCK!' PERSONA! GO SUCK ON YOUR OWN NUTZ ASSWIPE!!!!! *grrrrrrr*
*blush*
he really does get on my nerves. hahahahahah! and i really did want to be his friend...but he is crossing boundries and that shit dont fly with me. NUH-UH! *snaps fingers back and forth* *giggles* |
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| this is my wish for you, yes, YOU! |
[May. 19th, 2007|02:23 am] |
"My Wish"
I hope that the days come easy and the moments pass slow,
And each road leads you where you want to go,
And if you're faced with a choice, and you have to choose,
I hope you choose the one that means the most to you.
And if one door opens to another door closed,
I hope you keep on walkin' till you find the window,
If it's cold outside, show the world the warmth of your smile,
But more than anything, more than anything,
My wish, for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it to,
Your dreams stay big, and your worries stay small,
You never need to carry more than you can hold,
And while you're out there getting where you're getting to,
I hope you know somebody loves you, and wants the same things too,
Yeah, this, is my wish.
I hope you never look back, but ya never forget,
All the ones who love you, in the place you left,
I hope you always forgive, and you never regret,
And you help somebody every chance you get,
Oh, you find God's grace, in every mistake,
And you always give more than you take.
But more than anything, yeah, and more than anything,
My wish, for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it to,
Your dreams stay big, and your worries stay small,
You never need to carry more than you can hold,
And while you're out there getting where you're getting to,
I hope you know somebody loves you, and wants the same things too,
Yeah, this, is my wish.
This is my wish
I hope you know somebody loves you
May all your dreams stay big
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i really do mean this. with all my heart, body and soul, whether we meet, or never meet. or whether we have only talked once, or more than that...this song is from me to you.
lots of love,
elle♥ |
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[May. 12th, 2007|07:09 pm] |
i dont think i can ever really HATE someone. but i can most def. despise some one. and i just found one person i despise more than anyone in the world. more than me.
i dont know his name, i have never met him and i know i never will. i can honestly say i dont know a damn thing about the motherfucker, but i do know one thing....if i ever get my hands on him, i will show him a piece of my mind.
i am not a violent person, nor do i condemn it. i also take things with stride and if anyone every says things about me, its just 'water under the bridge/off my back' kinda thing. if someone who has never met me is willing to talk shit to me, why would their opinion matter....i dont know them, so fuck it. whatever, i say.
but, in that regards, i have also said that i would definitely take out my claws if it ever, EVER had to do with my family. when that happens, all sanity is out the window and out comes the bitch. the fucken HARDCORE bitch. my family means the world to me, especially my sisters. especially my sister, lucylla. i honestly have no idea what i would do without her. she is my rock. that being said.....someone SOB talked shit to my sister today on fucken myspace.
i had to really sit down and thing about this one. i mean, here is this guy, who we have never met, and never will and he is talking shit to my sister on myspace. yeah, stupid MYSPACE! the fucker even has his profile set to private, so you cant msg or comment. yet, he told her if she wanted beef with him to bring it. *scoffs* i had to laugh at first. i called bullshit and total jealously. this guy is obviously jealous that my sister is on this bands top 4 and he obviously totally has no life. so i told my sister that she should just ignore it. she said yeah, totally. so i just shrugged it off. even laughed too. i mean, its myspace. you cant take that shit seriously, and with the stupidity of adolesence today, its one of those, "shake 'em haters off!" kinda thing.
then i looked into her eyes and i could tell it was effecting her. my sister is very down to earth. but she has tons of trouble expressing her feelings. something tells me she will cry when she is alone. *heart breaks* the asshole made fun of her weight telling her she must weigh 3000 lbs and that no one would want a disusting person like her. my sister has issues with her weight and lately its been troubling her. just yesterday, we talked about it and it really upset her that she cant lose weight. this was just a really low blow for her.
*sigh* i want to hurt him.....i want to fucken chop his nuts off. but mostly, i just dont want her to feel bad. she was soooo happy and estatic when she found out they put her there and so many ppl have f-requested her. its insane...and while she kinda wished they would take her off, it was sooo cool. she loves this band like crazy. now, this one guy....is making her feel so bad.
i dont know what to do. had it been me, i would have laughed it up and even used it to my advantage. but for my sister.....this is going to plague her.
my poor mamas......she doesnt deserve that.
i am no longer pissed. that asshole doesnt deserve an ounce of my anger. but now....my heart aches for her.
i hate people, sometimes! |
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| beaten down again, i failed you. |
[May. 6th, 2007|04:48 pm] |
***note: my titles are soo funny to me. lol. has nothing to do with the post...its just lyrics of whatever is playing on my player...hahaha*
HOLA!!!!!!
i just shredded paper for two and a half hours. *blinks*
and my room still looks like a tornado passed through it. at least my sister is washing my clothes. *beams*
man.....its hot. and very humid. houston weather sucks ass!
well....yeah.....i am bored.
OHHHHHHHHHHHH! on a very much happier note....*giggles*....i have found my cds. well....one from linkin park, my seether cd, and one of soad....but i am still missing 'toxicity' from soad....and I FREAKING LOVE THAT CD!!!!! *pouts* i want it. *pouts more*
oh wells.....maybe if i clean more shit up, i will find it. by they way the cds were hiding in the living room by the family computer....hahaha.....grrrr!
hope everyone had a good weekend......*HUGS*
because of a post from the amazing coolndarklyeeri, i give you this. lol.
this one is from the concert i went too. he really is amazing!
this one, i dont know who to credit. but its a show in las vegas.
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| its just that damn good! so DEAL! |
[May. 5th, 2007|05:42 pm] |
i seriously can not stop looking at this pic. hehe!
SPARKLING BOB!!!
seriously....he has the cutest smile! *giggles and blushes*
yeah, mindless post..but felt like it....so HA! |
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